PrettyThin

i need a text buddy,. i dont want to be fat any longer.

wanna be my buddy? message me

What real girl hasn't aspired to be a Princess?

Royalty fears no pain;

has skin that glows with health

and incadescent beauty.

All Princesses have their Prince,

eternal happiness and unlimited weath.

But a Paper Princess...

that is something entirely new.

A one-dimensional self, soul, body--

possessed by one driving force:

to be Skin Thin.

Paper Princesses

don’t eat their dinners or sleep through the night.

Paper Princesses

starve and scream and storm and cry and cut.

(If I cry much more,

my paper skin will wilt,

melting off of paper bones.)

I want to be a real girl.

Real Girls

have hearts that don’t ache with a physical pain.

Real Girls

eat their potatoes and have sweet dreams of their Far-Away Princes.

Real Girls still think that Princes exist.

Real Girls are the real Princesses.

I want to be a real girl,

a Me-Girl who doesn't hurt herself,

a She-Girl that is loved by all.

I used to be a Princess.

But I turned to paper.

So much for Happily Ever After.

Hey! So, I took a little break from the site a while back and I'm slowly getting back in to it. I was looking for some diet buddies so we can keep each other motivated etc. Write to my inbox, whatever! :P

I live in England so yeah... hit me upxx.

Okay so ive posted something about this before, my boyfriend is freaking out aout my Ana and the thinspo that i look at, i really dont know what to tell him, how to explain it to him without it seeming destructive. Im really becoming to love my new body and i just wish that he would leave me alone about it! its the only thing that i have thats MINE! he runs everything else, he controls the money and basically what i do, i mean its not like he holds me back from anything really its just the sircumstances that i have infront of me. I Love my Ana i love the way that i feel when i havent eaten, and i hate how i feel when im full. i still have some weight to lose and i just dont know what to do, how do i talk to him about it? hes going to think im rediculious. i just feel so much better when i have my Ana to help me.

Help guys, Please?

i dont know what to do and im so close to a nervous breakdown

he says he "wants me to think long and hard about our relationship and lying to him about my thinspo"

what the hell am i supposed to do? i cant get fat again i just CANT!

worth

// stream of consciousness, prose. //

i must still love you without love

without hate and i see you sometimes

pretty smiles dolled up eyes but you're

lonely. all alone and i still love you pieces

of me left shattered they love you.

and that bitter pain the one that feels like you

sits inside my lungs and cries;

drowning saline solution the resin is my pain

sticks like tar touching everything.

carrying a secret agony, a broken heart.

something forever unhealed- a private place

with women in black who mourn, they wail and

mourn for what never was and never will be

reunited in flames

i'll push the boulder for awhile

so this is my first time on this site..and it feels a bit strange talking so openly about this whole skinny thing...i have had a massive relapse and gained back all the weight i lost plus a bit more.. i am loosing control of my eating and bingeing almost every day now. without control of what i eat, i feel i have no control of the rest of my life. its an obsession and a fight every day of my life. it was so easy to loose weight and keep it off for months but it now seems impossible... any tips?

for a reference i was 49kgs (approximately 109 lbs for all who use that metric system) and i am now 58kgs (about 127.7lbs) 

also i have heard the abc diet works? should i try it?

I feel so alone, I want to talk- but not with you, not with anyone really.

I feel so cold, I want a blanket but I know it won’t help me.

I feel so sad, I want you to understand but I know you simply can't.

I feel so small, but i'm as big a house.

I feel so heartbroken, how can I still love you when you hate me.

I feel so dead,  on top of my bed when I should be in a casket.  

Yet, despite all this, I still manage to feel numb to everything else. 

So, I just finished four days of strict water fasting. Yay me! But with my family situation I can't keep up the fasting, so I need to start easing back into normal-ish food on the weekend, so I don't:

1. Gain a bunch of weight from the lowered metab. from the fast

2. Make my family worried

For today, saturday, and sunday, I'm going to do a liquid fast. Which is, I'll drink chicken bouillon broth and watered down organic fruit juices-- not in excess of 400 cals each day.

Then on monday I'll eat start eating a small amount of veggies and fruits. This time no more than 300 cals a day. Then on friday I'll boost it up to 500 cals a day, and allow myself unbreaded chicken.

From there, who knows?

I can't wait for all of this! Ana makes me so happy. Being able to set goals and achieve them is wonderful. I'm beginning to trust myself. I know I can achieve my goals. I can I can I can. I'm losing weight already.

Even more excited to be able to exercise once I start eating. My plan is, once I hit a plateau I begin the biking. But right now, as I'm able to lose a lot of weight just fasting&restricting, I want to take advantage of that.

I know this is long, sorry! I also can't wait to take a new picture of myself on monday. Hopefully there will be a visible weight loss since last monday.

I love food. More so then most people. When I was younger I hated giving any of it away for any reason which has made weight loss very hard for me. I couldn't stop eating until there was no food left on my plate and the larger the portion the better. I'm finally getting over my food addiction thanks to meditation and exercise. I'm able to leave food on my plate and throw it away without feeling guilty and my portions have gone from super sized to smaller than normal. My weight has dropped about three pounds already since I started meditating and leaving food on my plate! I still have a long ways to go but I just thought I'd share this small success story with you.

So I was on facebook the other day and saw this page about how skinny girls are nasty looking and it was for people who preferred bigger girls. That's fine with me, they can like what they want, but some of the stuff there got me thinking.

On the pictures, the comments were really cruel, bashing all of these really skinny girls and everything...and I remembered back when I first came to this site, and posted a page about how happy I was to have fasted successfully for a day....all of the comments were nice, friendly, supportive, and just made me feel GOOD, like I was doing something right for a change. Why would a pro-ana site that is considered "bad" by many people make you feel so GOOD about yourself, and a page about anti-thinness make you feel like shit and be so negative??

So I just wanted to say thanks to everyone on this site, because a lot of people don't understand the meaning of this site to me. It's not bad, it's just helping us all better ourselves