PrettyThin

Every day I hear her telling me stop eating your gonna get fat. Your such an ugly cow. Why would he want to be with you. Your disgusting. And I feel like every time I step on the scale its just lying to me. I've been running like 5 miles a day on 200 cal. Ive lost five pounds in 6 days. I still feel like I'm not good enough. My boyfriend says he supports me on loosing weight and then complains to everyone about me once I leave. I feel like he's just like every guy. All they want is the same god damn thing. Just because I didnt feel like kissing tonight he decided to go to sleep. Its like thats all he wants me for. If I don't want to be physical then why spend time with me? He says he really likes me, but I feel like I'm just his second choice. I'm always the second choice. Its like no matter what I do, I still feel like he's looking at the other girls. He liked my friend and before me but she turned him down. I regret ever saying yes to him. I'm just a fat ugly worthless noone anyways. at five one and still at 108. I deserve to starve. i deserve to feel the pain and loose that weight. Just ten more pounds.