PrettyThin

Today, I've decided that I'm starting over. I will fast tommorow. I won't let anything stand in my way. Yesterday i stepped on the scale and was 121 D: Before the weekend, i was 118. I ate so much. I feel so fat. Nobody understands me excpet people here. I cut myself today. I hadn't cut for a week or two and i thought i was going to stop. I really did. But that's just not how it went. Today sucked so bad. It's only going to get worse. I'm going to drivers ed for the first time and i'm so nervous!! D: I hate my life. I realized that i take everything out on myself. I realized the true reason for doing this, my step dad. Everytime i would eat, he would make cow noises at me. I hate him so much, but my mom can't kick him out or we would loose the house. I don't know what to do anymore. I can't get a job yet because I'm not old enough yet. I don't even know what i want anymore...