PrettyThin

I will never be the same

distorted and maimed

another pawn in the game

The body is my enmity

a puppet full of pity-

this high is making me feel giddy

Mind ablaze

this is not just a phase

trapped in a daze, meaner than that black haze

It is all on fire

and I no longer desire

does this make me enlightened? buddha what says you?

I want nothing, no longer do I think I even need anything-

that is all I am-

nothing

An anorexic

bulimic

ednos prick

that is all I am-

a trick

a play of the cards

a roll of the die

I am everything you could ever despise

and if you were wise you would turn away

erase my face from that gaze

you won't even remember my name

it is better this way

as I am going anyway

and in every way

going insane

going blind

going mute

going paralyzed

going to die

do I dare even take another breath?

There is no coming back from this,

I know this for sure

even if I survive

I will never be the same,

as them

as I am

as I was

as I could have been

as I should have been

as I would have been.