PrettyThin

We all know them, we all suffer from them.

I truly don't understand how some people can be so UNSENSITIVE!

Okay so for most of my life, and definately the present, I've been a very shy, secretive, and anti-social person. It's really hard for me to get close to people, or even interact with them. But lately, I've made a friend and I've really been trying to be friends with her!

It was actually going pretty well for the FIRST TIME in a very long time, and I was starting to be able to relax around her.

Then unfortunately for me, one time she decided to randomly come over and when she did I was in the middle of a really bad breakdown I was having.

I was sobbing, my leg was extremely cut up and bleeding (although I didn't let her see that) and things were, well, really bad.

So of course she comes in and asks what's wrong, and I just broke down and told her everything...

My ED, mental problems, depression, and really just about EVERYTHING

At first I thought it might be BETTER because for the first time in my life I actually told someone about my secrets.

Wanna know what she did? Here's basically how the dialogue went. (And I was UNSTABLE at that moment, I couldn't stop crying even when she came over)

She LAUGHED and said "Wow, I wish I could do that" (She is overweight btw)

I just looked at her with probably a dumb-founded look on my face "...What?"

"Well I mean, no wonder you're so skinny. It must be nice."

"NICE?! Did you just hear any word I just said?! What, do my mental problems seem nice too?"

-Another laugh here- "Being normal is overrated, I wish I could be like you."

I just couldn't talk anymore, I was too shocked by how she reacted. Then she left, and I was stuck so much worse than before.

Wow THANKS, I'm definately going to trust more people from now on!! (Sarcastic tone if you didn't notice.)

It's good to know that being a suicidal mental case is 'cool' now. >_>

I swear I don't understand people.

Even when I think I finally have a close friend I can trust, it turned out like this.

Maybe I'm just better being off alone.