PrettyThin

today i binged alot and right when i was gonna purge my dad came home.usually i only binge/purge when im alone for obvious reasons.so  i pretended i was taking a shower and did it then.but when i got out he looked so sad and like dissapointed and asked me like 3 times if i still throw up.because he knows i used to.and he was like "i thought you were getting better.why are you still losing so much weight?" i dont like seeing him that way because i hate letting him down.for anything. so i just assured him in not throwing up even though he didnt believe me. the last thing i want is to let everyone i love down. i feel so bad. but im not gonna stop. why is it my family, one friend and my doctor are the only ones who think im too skinny.just the other day someone told me i had a big butt all day. and 'curves'. i hate hearing it and im not going to stop until that changes.