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Posted by MySkinLovesThin on February 6, 2010 at 1:53 PM

No one saw through your games, confidential.

I know the right words to say, FACT,

Like "I don't feel well," "I ate before I came".

Then someone tells you how good you look,

"Sexy" - "thin"

And for a moment, your heart skips a beat,

To make us happy,

You realise their lies will come back to bite you,

in your fat ass.

But when Your alone, no one hears your cry, standard.

But when your alone, no one hears your cry, FACT.

I am the loss of appetite.



I need you to need me, GIRL

I need you to know,

That we'll be OK together we can be strong, FACT.

Push a little farther now,

Together we can make it through another day,

Without me you feel

un-beautiful,

That was the first day I constrained you, 

like a puppet doll, but with chains instead of strings,

What I do know is how I've changed your life forever,

an 'eternal' relationship.

I am the reminder of the ugliness in the mirror.


And you need my help, so i'm not letting go,

You an me have a pact. FACT.

You should know you're not on your own,

These secrets are walls that keep us alone,

If you're flawless, then you'll win my love

Don't forget to keep that smile on your face,

"Smile" FAKE. 

Try a little harder, You've got to measure up,

How long before you screw it up, without me your nothing. 

I have the need for speed, you have the urge to purge,

Thanks to me, "Skinny"

I am your motivation, your companion. 


With everything I do for you, LIES.

The least you can do is keep quiet,

Be a good girl,

I'll live for you if you live with me. 

You are me, you are what i am, FACT.

And it really doesn't matter that we don't eat

No, it really doesn't matter at all

Cause we were so young, now,

And when tomorrow comes,

We'll just do it all again,

Yes we will, purge.

I am in your head. FULL STOP.


I'm doing this for your own damn good,

What's the problem ...... why are you crying,

We are friends,

Companion's. FACT.

I'll love you just the way you are if you're perfect,

I wonder what are we fighting for,

You want to get out of this, 

But my grasps tough, tougher than you. 

I'd miss you. 

FAT.

Why fight against me.. I'm helping you to your goal. 

I am your goal. 


I wonder how it's going to be?,

When you don't know me,

When your carted to rehab. FACT.

How's it going to be?, 

They'll be a silence you can't ignore

I wonder how its going to be, 

Between you and me,

Because i don't care.

I'll find my next victim, HA

and that tangled web of lies, 

will arrive. 

I am your life.


Cause I don't care,

How's it going to be,

You care about me. 

When your parents and friends laugh,

point at you, worthlessness. 

antidepressants for your anxiety,

Diet pills for your depression,

Happiness is a hard price to pay,

I am the pill, you are addicted.

Thin for the win.

I am your ANA. 


And you can't get rid of me. FACT

What's changed?

Categories: Random Thoughts, My Story, Poetry

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6 Comments

Reply Lil
04:37 PM on February 06, 2010 
Amazing xO luve this soo much. The bold highlighting of some words/ repeated words really helped the flow :)
Lil xxx
Reply FelictiyAnn88
07:12 PM on February 06, 2010 
this is interesting. it it like your version of the song "courage" (by superchick), or something? idk why.... but it sort of just reminds me of that.
Reply lilia
08:49 PM on February 06, 2010 
This is exactly how I feel too. I really like the way you designed this to reflect how things work inside our heads, no matter how twisted it may be. If you need to talk more, Im here. But just know youre not alone
Reply Mo!!yy*Do!!yy
09:12 PM on February 06, 2010 
Turn this into a song.
Reply Becky
09:21 PM on February 06, 2010 
I absolutely love it, for 2 reasons. One, its super creative and folws really well. Two, Its absolutely true. It says what we are all thinking but to afraid to speak. Well done.
Reply Katstrophick
06:08 PM on February 08, 2010 
I love how you have like turned Courage into your own poem. it is lovely. I mean nothing beats the original, LEGEND SONG but that is very very good :)

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