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So this is my first ever blog, I wonder if I'll get the little fanfare in my head when I click 'submit'?
I burned only half of what I ate today, yesterday I burned it all.
Unlike a lot of what I hear, see and read I know that I am becoming ill again and I see it as ill. But it's so bitter sweet. I love that feeling when you know your body is eating itself and soon you'll see your beautiful bones. The bones that you know are white and pure, and that show you what you really look like on the inside.
Anyway, this is me, signing out.
Goodnight xxx
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SO today was better, but I'm starting to wonder how long this little honeymoon period will last.
Last time I got away with being ill for so long. This time I'm not so sure, I'm already being watched, but I'm determined, I burned everything I ate today, in fact more I think... I hope
I don't know if anyone is reading this but I can't cope, I just can't stand to be around my self at the moment. This isn't a threat, it's almost an observation of myself, of the intense disparity between my painful desire to return to my former, somewhat shadowy self, and the knowledge that sooner or later my secret will be revealed and the people I love will know that I've been lying to them for weeks and months.
Sorry
xxx
Last time I got away with being ill for so long. This time I'm not so sure, I'm already being watched, but I'm determined, I burned everything I ate today, in fact more I think... I hope
I don't know if anyone is reading this but I can't cope, I just can't stand to be around my self at the moment. This isn't a threat, it's almost an observation of myself, of the intense disparity between my painful desire to return to my former, somewhat shadowy self, and the knowledge that sooner or later my secret will be revealed and the people I love will know that I've been lying to them for weeks and months.
Sorry
xxx
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