PrettyThin

We all have a billion and five reasons

to want to be skinny.
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CD: Day two of ABC
CW: 140
GW1: 130
GW2: 120
GW3: 110
UGW: 100 on the dot

There's always that motivation, that list of reasons you want to be thin. Maybe it
isn't just reasons, maybe it's a list of things you will be able to do, a list of
 clothing you will look good in, a lifestyle you will be able to live, etc. But we
 all have them. They may not be written. Your list may be strictly made up of 
thoughts. However your list is constructed, and wherever you keep it, I know you 
have one. It's different from your thinspiration. It's the cause of your actions.
The driving force behind your diets and fasts. And at the top of that list is 
always one main thing. The reason with the most will behind it. The one thing you
can not wait for when you're skinny. It's the last thing on your mind when you think
of eating, the thing that ultimately stops you from it. It's the first thing on
your mind when you think of why you are doing it and what your reward will be.

At the top of my list, is a lifestyle. A style I would love to start living.
Maybe it's a stereotype, or a "look". But either way, this is my top reason for
all that I am doing -- the diets, the exercising, the fasts, the purges. Here goes.

I want to be covered in tattoos. I want to have a million piercings. But in my mind,
I won't look good with tattoos until I am skinny. I don't know why. Maybe because
I'm already obsessed with the thought of "thin" being the only synonym for "beauty".
Maybe it's because the inked up women I idolize look like a lollipop -- thin, stick
body and huge, teased hair. Picture it for a minute, you'll get the lollipop image.

I want to have hip piercings, for example. I think they are sexy as can be. I love 
how they look, I love them on thin girls, whose hip bones stick out. I love when the 
lines of their beautiful hip bones are complimented with barbells following the curve.
I just want to be so small, that I can work those piercings wonderfully. I don't think
I deserve them at the weight I am. I don't see me looking good rocking hip piercings.
I see the thin, 100lb me rocking them, with a pair of low rise, acid wash jeans, and
a cropped tee. I can't wait to be able to feel beautiful enough to walk in to Iron 
Legends and say "I'd like my hips pierced" with a huge smile on my face. And for the
piercer to be able to perfectly line up the needle with the evident lines of my
pertruding hip bones. I keep thinking of how awesome they will look, and it keeps me
going half of the time.

That and the thought of all of the tattoos I want. Full sleeves, a covered back, a chest
piece, back of my thighs. I have every single tattoo I want picked out, but I just can't
see them looking good on me with my current size. Once again, I want my tattoos to look
like the are a part of my body -- to flow with the natural contours of my bones. I think
skinny girls with tattoos look perfect because their ink does just that. That's my main
reason.

Skinny girls look better with tattoos and piercings.
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<3

Keep thinking of the rewards; your reasons. 
Much love.