I realize something like this is hard, but if it is so damaging to ones self and it doesn't make you feel any better about yourself... perhaps one should get help. Clearly its a psychological problem, not just a weight issue. One isn't a failure because they realize they can't control themsleves anymore. One is strong, when they realize how out of control things really are and can admit they need help.
that's EXACTLY how it is. when i was really into the binge/purge cycle a part of me was terrified b/c i didn't feel as if i could ever stop. i felt like a puppet on a string. i was just eating, eating, eating and then throwing up and then doing it all over again. bulimia scares the sh*t out of me. i prefer to starve. at least i feel like i have SOME control.
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