PrettyThin

I've been a member of your site for a long time now and I feel it's about time that I say thank you. However sick it may sound that I am thanking you, I need to do so.

I've had problems with my eating for over 7 years now and the entire time I've felt useless and fat, a waste of space, a failure; if you will. And I used my eating to help me deal with these problems and, to be fair, it worked, for a while. Before it became me. I lost who I was to my anorexia, I built up a new me, a me I could stand and a me that I liked, I was scared that if I got help I would go back to being that fat girl, the useless one again. So it took me several years before I asked for help. I asked my mum and then my father. They both laughed and said I was too fat to be anorexic. I started to self harm and cut back even more. I somehow got sucked into a viscous binge cycle that stopped me from doing things. My self confidence stopped me from going out with my friends and my eating threatened to put me in hospital.
Then I found your site. I suddenly felt less of a freak, more normal, like I could be honest to people without fear. I truly think your site saved me. I lost more weight and still obsessed with my weight and size, but I was happy in the community of people that I was meeting. I wasn't alone. And now, I'm in regular therapy (not doing much to be honest) but I'm talking and understanding. And I don't think I would have had the strength to do that without your help.

You must ignore the foul comments people send you, you are saving lives, you're making them better and you're stopping people from feeling alone. The only thing that taints this site is the sick children who think Anorexia is a choice, those who try to get it I pity them and I hope someone makes them see sense. But for those who do have a problem you are a godsend!

 Danielle - United Kingdom